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Welcome to my life – Nurse Life!

It’s 6:48am and I am writing this whilst I sit and watch my patient sleep and wait patiently for the day staff to start filtering in. It is my second night shift out of three but I cannot complain as the next (and last for this group of shifts!) is a bank shift which despite meaning a couple of extra quid also means the tax man is gonna have a medieval banquet when it comes to my monthly wonga. You may be able to tell that I am in a bit of a sarcastic mood – how I hear you ask or roll your eyes at me! It is before 7am on a friggin’ Sunday! Nurse life is just riveting.

Well, as I mentioned above it is my second night shift out of a block of three and I am really bloody tired. I have been awake since 5pm last night and I am just about to hit the daydreaming side of reality where I can feel the soft, gentle caress of my pillow against the side of my head. BUT NO – There goes another patient alarm!

Some may say that due to the nature of Intensive Care we are the lucky few nurses that get our one nurse to one patient ratio and at times this can be very true. However, when the shit hits the fan it gets real and that shit happens real quick, most the time we are by the bedside on our own with our neighbour (another nurse) for assistance until doctors and a nurse in charge rush to the bed space in the event of any emergency. But when I say the shit hits the fan real quick picture the scene – you are riding out the night shift like a pro, your patient is comfortable and sleeping, their blood pressure is stable and all your meds are topped up so you can actually breath for five minutes or more.

THEN you hear the alarm and their blood pressure is through the floor and their heart rate is through the roof, you don’t have the one drug that you need right now and you have sent your neighbour to go and get it whilst you pull the crash bell and get those legs up in the air quicker than a can-can dancer at the Moulin Rouge. You are not panicking because you are in the zone. Meanwhile their blood pressure is still through the floor and your neighbour cannot find the drug cupboard keys. The crash bell is still sounding out as at the other end of the main part of your unit the surgeons have cracked open a chest and the nurse in charge is standing by as over watch for the junior nurse that has just shit their pants at the fact that it is their first open chest EVER.

A doctor is running towards you and another nurse is pushing the crash trolley but you are still not panicking. You see the doctor running but in true nurse style that crash trolley is coming in good time but not speeding. By the time the doctor gets to you and looks at all the monitors, the patient and their history to try and figure out what is causing this event your nurse colleague has helped you get some pads on the patient, connected them to the defib just in case and those legs are still up in the air.

Before you know it is 10 minutes later, the patient is now sedated, tubed and you are back at the end of the bed space in the intensive care bliss that is intensive care patient management. To those that say I am lucky to have one patient I agree, because if I had more than one and such an event happened they would probably die and I am so glad that I decided to leave the ward and go to intensive care to continue my training and come out the other side and be able to use the knowledge I have gained in my recent years here. Thankfully last night what not one of those shifts!

When I started writing this post I am not sure what direction I thought it would go but a good point to end on is – despite having to work some honestly quite shitty shifts and very long hours I can happily say that I get paid to do a job that I love and the majority of the time look forward to going to work. Of course, when I am a lot more coherent (awake!) I will probably write a post about many of the other aspects of my job, but for now… that is all!

Have a great Sunday lovelies!

p.s. I apologise for any bad grammar or spelling mistakes! 

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For four days The Old Truman Brewery just off Brick Lane played host to The London Coffee Festival 2017. The golden opportunity for coffee connoisseurs and neophytes alike to indulge in that delicious brown nectar we all know and some of us love ‘COFFEE’ was upon us. Even if you coffee is not your thing there were a plethora of other treats on offer. The sheer volume was quite overwhelming let alone the amount of visitors that the festival attracted. With over 30,000 people attending this year ‘coffee’ was definitely the most popular hashtag of the day/weekend – that alongside #LondonCoffeeFestival #LCF17 #LoveCoffee.

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From Roasting to Latte Art the creme de la creme of the coffee world were there front and centre with some truly spectacular demonstrations and workshops that were available for all to see and get involved. Sadly I was only able to see the action on the big screen they had available for those that could not get a piece of the action up close and personal (hence the lack of pictures!).

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On entering the festival I was given a wristband, goody bag and map and sent off to enjoy the festivities at my leisure. The smell was to die for and something that I really did enjoy, the heat from all of the machines however is something that I was not at all prepared for (please guys get some ventilation for next time!). Although I am no barista I have a varied interest in coffee and appreciate the bean so it was very interesting to see not only the many different types of coffee but the ways it can be brewed. I have always been a coffee with milk and two sugars kinda girl but since visiting this phenomenal place my tastes have changed quite a bit. Out of the many stalls that I visited there were a couple that really stuck with me not only for the taste of the coffee but also the people and activities available.

Festival Favourites

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HER Coffee

This particular brand really surprised me as I have never been a fan of cold brew coffee – just something about it that I couldn’t entirely get my head around. These guys however have me sold on the idea, so much so that I walked away with their largest available bottle of the stuff and a week later already need to get myself a refill!

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Union Coffee

Coffee matching, grinding, tasting and general appreciation of coffee were on the menu in the Union Coffee corner of the room. Whilst I was there I attempted to match the coffees and came oh so close but still one step too far from actually solving the mystery that is coffee. All of them of course tasted absolutely divine.

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Baileys

This stand really doesn’t need an explanation now does it?! I mean Bailey’s! Ok so they had Baileys Iced Latte & Mocha cans but also cocktails on offer. The one thing that really got me were the ice lollies! Not only because of the insane temperature inside but BAILEYS ICE CREAM! Serious noms right there!

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Hotel Chocolat

For those of you that aren’t really into coffee Hotel Chocolat introduced Teaolat to the festival and oh my life was it an exhibition within itself. I have never seen so much chocolate in one place in my life! There was a TOWER of chocolate, seriously guys a TOWER that was bigger than most very tall individuals.

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Overall, I managed to inhale about 10 shots of coffee, before moving onto the secret garden to purchase one of the most delicious and aesthetically pleasing cocktails I have seen in a long time. If you haven’t been to a London Coffee Festival before my advice to you would be

  • Get a ticket (early bird if possible)
  • Get down there quite early
  • Make yourself a timetable for the activities going on
  • With your timetable prep yourself to get up front for the activities for a good view
  • Don’t drive so you can enjoy yourself
  • Go with a friend – it can get incredibly lonely even if you do meet awesome people
  • Keeping that timetable in mind plan out what you want to photograph with your camera, get your pics then use your phone for the rest so you don’t miss too much.

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Massive thanks to the lovelies at Hope & Glory PR for the ticket – all opinions are my own.
Here’s to next year peeps!

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The saying goes – When life gives you lemons you . . . – fill that in at your leisure but whilst I am making ‘lemonade’ (not in the Beyonce sense of the word!) I was also surrounding by one of the most beautiful collections of Cacti and Succulents that I have come across in a very long time. Even though myself and the bestie had other designs on our day life steered us in the direction of the beautiful Petersham Nurseries. As we stepped across the threshold I whispered to myself ‘we are not in Kansas anymore Toto!’. From head to toe with length and depth it was beautiful both visually and sensually and I was excited to see what the rest had to offer.

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With that in mind I will definitely be going back on a day that they are actually fully open for business as it would be wrong of me to judge when things are not running at full steam ahead. Mark my words Petersham Nurseries I will be back to see you in all of your glory and I have no doubt that it will be absolutely SPECTACULAR. And before I leave I will check your lovely website to double check that I am coming on a day when food is available! Petersham Nurseries, Petersham, Richmond, London, Surrey, Flowers, Plants, Succulents, Cacti, Cactus, Bedding Plants, Nurseries, Garden, Gardening, Summer, Hydrangea, Wellington Boots, Wellies, Blooms, Bunches, Beautiful, Beauty, Blogger, Life, Lifestyle, Blog A Book Etc, Fay

Have you eaten at Petersham Nurseries?
If so what did you think and what should I have when I go back?!

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There are days when you feel like you are sinking into a never ending abyss those are the days that you need to drag yourself out of that proverbial hole more than ever. Lately, despite having my family, close friends and colleagues around me I have never felt so alone. Personally I have never been the sort of person to dwell in the past and much prefer to get up and go rather than mope but that seems to have worked more to my detriment than credit. To add insult to injury one of the closest people in my life suffers from depression and I just don’t know what to do half of the time. Whatever I say or do is either not enough or too much and the happy medium seems like the holy grail. As I said within myself my go to trait is to sort out a problem and there are three things that over the years have helped me on my way to sorting out most of my problems. I hope they can help you too.

Is it so wrong to be just happy?
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Me Time

When I say ‘Me Time’ you are probably thinking that I have gone slightly mad but just keep on reading and you will realise that I have not! When you are alone you have the opportunity to do things your way without the consideration of anyone else, this is something that to some may be considered as terribly selfish but as an only child for years I have had to find ways to just be me without outside input so I am now able to thrive in this particular sense. When I am having a moment like this I like to run a hot bath, listen to my current audio book and light my favourite candle. The face masks are next to come out and I partake in the ritual of self cleansing from top to bottom – guys it is the best thing ever. When I have finished cleansing I move on to getting my thoughts down onto paper.

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Write

Whether I am writing a journal entry or a thank you note there is something personal about each part because it has come straight from me. When I am in deep thought I love to write as the words just flow freely and when I am done they stop naturally – I guess it is a bit like having a silent rant. The choice is yours after you have finished writing, you can either send it on to the person it was intended, keep it or even destroy it but in that moment it is YOUR CHOICE. For the past 63 days I have written in my journal every day as I haven’t really been feeling myself and in an effort to find out what the heck is my problem the writing has really helped. Of course I am still angry and hurting but it is much more bearable when I write it all down. When I am done putting pen to paper I get my trainers on and head out for a walk to let go of all the negative thoughts that have been surrounding me.

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Walk

In an effort to breath and reboot whilst I am out I zone out whilst listening to my audiobook and just walk without a destination. There have been times where I have walked about 3 miles before I realise that I need to turn back and head home and there are times where I get to the corner shop and just want and need to get back home as quickly as possible. Either way I am out, breathing deeply and letting go. If you haven’t tried it then it is truly one of the easiest and most effectively ways of catching your breath and gathering or releasing your thoughts.

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*The three suggestions given above should not be considered as medical advice and if you or a loved one is suffering from depression, anxiety or any other mental illness please do seek help.  Check out The Mental Health Foundation website as there are plenty of resources available.

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There will always be room for Lovers & Friends

On a daily basis how many people do you come into contact with? Whether it be face to face or online? I’m guessing that on average if we all really put ourselves out there we could reach a significantly large group of people. In that group of people how many would you consider friends? If that is too much to think about then at least contemplate out of the forever growing number of contacts how many could you call an acquaintance?

There is a significant difference between a friend and an acquaintance and I believe that even within that downsized circle there is an even larger divide between a friend and a best friend. When I say best friend I am not talking in the typically high school kind of way where you are best friends this week and next arch enemies. The type of ‘bestie’ that I am talking about is the one who has been there for you from way back when to a point that both of you and only the two of you can name the day. Do you have one person that despite all of the petty childhood arguments and teen angst that you can truly call a friend? A sister?

My late father once told me something that a very wise friend of his told him ‘You can count your true friends on one hand but your family don’t need counting as they are in your heart forever’. During the immediate period after losing my dear daddy it was crystal clear who my real friends and family are. Those that have been by my side know who they are and it was in my time of immediate need. In a time where my world crumbled into the smallest pieces each one of them were there putting me back together again. Please don’t be mistaken that I am fully recovered as that really is a long way off but with their help I will get there and the same is reciprocated to them.

I digress. . .

My blood sister is non-existent as I am an only child but the sister in my heart is Catherine from Vintage Frills.

Over the years we have had some rough times both individually and together but we are still unbreakable and every day I thank god that she is in my life. Between the two of us we have seen off many adversaries (the men in our lives and those female ‘friends’!) but our tough exterior doesn’t falter. We have moaned about each other TO each other but life never seems to get in the way if one needs the other. Luckily between the two of us we have two blokes who seem to have just accepted that we will be there no matter what – thankfully! I am lucky enough to have two beautiful strong willed god children and look forward to making life even better in the future. She has been my rock when I most need her and I love her for that and much more.

Life goes on and so does our friendship.

Who is your rock, bestie, sister? I’d love to know.